Once upon a time I believed ain't nothing in the world that could tear us apart.
It happened.
I was alone for awhile.
Walking the earth.
With a hole in my heart.
I went searching for the feeling you gave me.
Only to be left repeatedly, the true thing never came.
Then one day into the night.
I met this guy, we spoke for a long time, we were planning on getting married.
His name was Trey, I was hiding something from him.
I told him the truth.
Weeks later, I was permanently left again.
A month later, I thought of you.
Don't know why..
I started having the same feeling like you recently disappeared outta my life.
I wanted to disappear myself.
Into the air of you or into the air of hell.
Every single day, I've been crying for you.
In and out of relationships.
You could never do that for me.
It is pain and I honestly wish I never fell in love...
with you.
You are the worse.
Because you are the one that hurts the most.
You are the best.
Because I had the happiest moments with you, I never was more self-less with anyone.
I love you.
So don't be ashamed.
In the end.
We're all going in a closing.
There won't be any opening.
Any opening of the heart.
Any opening of the mind.
Any open-ness to smile.
Any person to say "I love you."
By then it will be too late.
If there is a heaven or a hell.
So help me.
I really do hope I am wherever you are.
No longer, will we be far.
It's you, you've always been the one.
You always will be, babe.
Longing fingertips are no fun.
An airplane in the sky.
Rain or clear skies.
With a broken hearted girl on it.
Heading to Washington State.
'Tired of checking her mailbox for a response that will never come true.
I wrote my heart to you.
I still will.
Once upon a time.
You actually spoke to me.
I want to be there for you.
We have to be together again.
Please....
A lover in disgust.
A teacher in pain.
Dedicated To: Chad Pattison
Written: 1/6/13 Sun. 8 a.m.
I honestly do cry everyday for you, you left me March 2-3 '11. It's Jan '13. I am in dire need of your love, I always have been.
