Alter Ego (part II)

*written 5/11/11*

She's a nobody,
just a big pile of nerves
that are ready to short-circuit
at any moment.
But don't ask me why because
I won't give a straight answer.
A truthful one,

yes but only a sample of it
and only the rejected parts.
Am I making sense, or have I lost you yet?
If you're still hanging on, then you deserve a medal.
Not really, I just like to think I'm nice,
so I say flattering things
instead of what I'm really thinking.

I don't think you'd want to hear what I was really thinking
because you wouldn't like me very much, anymore.
Oh, I'm pretty sure you'd like the real Rusheena,
but she's hiding somewhere in her subconscious,
and she doesn't want to come out until it's safe.
Safe from what, you ask?
Safe from me.

Safe from the selfish, cold-hearted scoundrel
that I'm trying to turn her into.
She's been resisting me with all her effort,
but I know she'll give in someday,
even if it's just for one day.
I know her weaknesses, and I plan to exploit them
until she cracks like an egg dropped on a sidewalk.

I want her.
I want to devour her.
And then I want to make a new her.
I'm sure she'll object,
but she lost her authority a long time ago.
I'm sure you'll object too,
but who are you?