My pain

My pain is not easy
it starts out when I was five
a guy raped me
I started cutting then
tried killing myself
then in first grade my first and only friend
died in a fire
years later my fience killed herself
toked her and our unborn baby with her
then the girl I loved
tried killing herself
and died in my arms
that's what I can say
and my body will show you
my pain
that I wear on my skin
of all my misery and hate
my love and my pain
now Britt killed herself
I don't know how much more I can take
my heart is calling for the end