You kept me here

Your the only thing keeping me here. i would take a bullet, be put threw a long torturing death to let you breath and make you ok. trust me when i say i shall destroy myself daily till you see all i bleed are apologies. if this shall break i will surely be sent away for my actions of desire desire and anger. you may not hear my words of sorrowful cries, but perhaps you could see my blood if i spill it till it fills an endless trench. i hurt you from my friends actions, i take blame. i shall always take blame for your pain, your whispers of sin, and your unseen scars. how do i prove my sorrow? my blood? my blade? my words? tell and i shall always deliver it by your side. you have made me break, as i have proven to others im to strong for that. you are who i wish to prove myself to. i never thought you would come back. how could i prove to you or any that i am sorry for what i have done. it hurts to admit, but i have been crying for you with every breath i take. blood is the only escape so i shall spill to my last drop to make you feel secure. as i sit i see that i may never be right by you again. im sorry for my trust in the wrong people. i pray you shall see that one day before i am over. I've hurt you with my friends actions. i shall accept all penalty you imagine on me. i wish for you to be happy and free. tell me what i must do to make that be and i shall use the strength i have left to make that so. i dont know what i must say anymore. my breath has run short to all ends. just show me what you wish and i shall show you what i can give. i cant say sorry enough, but yet it all means nothing. ill go through anything to prove my word is mine. i cant breath right with any of what you all think of me. my word to you shall always remain true... i love you

this was to my ex... i wrote it when i was still with him