Ecstasy (Part I)

Strap me down to that gurney and cart me off into the shadows.

Open my veins; inject them with lithium, until it overflows.

Don't stop, even if I beg you to.

I may cough up a bit of blood, but that's nothing new.

I watch the clear liquid inside the syringe go all the way down,

until it disappears.

And with it, goes a lifetime of regret, pain, and fears.

I kick, I struggle, I SCREAM, but I don't dare try to get up--

Yes...that's it...

I tilt my head back and let the drugs do with me what they will.

I'm floating to another universe, one with no questions or no answers,

just dying stars slowly exploding all around me

and landing into the unknown, as my body begins to numb.

I'm sheltered from His eyes, once again,

as I drift farther and further into another dimension.

I feel warmth on my face that spreads down to my neck.

There's a burning in my chest, now, a heat I've never felt before.

It feels so good...

*Inspired by the song "Black Nurse" by Glassjaw*