Bundle of Nerves

I fumbled through newspapers
like a scorned lover in a panic
attack haze.

Where could I find a coupon
for an elixir that smooths
the edges of my damaged
aura?

The coffee cup shakes
in a twisted, feverish
rotation, spilling the last
few drops upon my snow
white collar.

Over the hill hallucinations
baffle a peace lover like
myself, causing me to
question my ability to
shine.

In a reckless race to
the powder room, I
do a double take glance,
to reassure myself one
last time,

that I'm good enough-

The mirror becomes
a smoke ring haze
of truth, cracking
a smile, where a
smile doesn't exist
anymore..

at that pin point moment
I realize I'm the contender
living beyond my dreams,
strength isn't packaged
in an antidepressant
capsule, but deep in
the flesh beating depths
of my pure heart....