Tired of holding back the pain,
Holding it in drives me insane.
Remembering what we once had,
Continues to make me go mad.
Tears laced with blood,
As they fall making a puddle.
Remembering your sweet embrace,
And all the times we used to cuddle.
Crying at the words you say,
Wishing maybe there was a way.
Hoping, longing you'd forget me.
Knowing all through it you wouldn't
No longer caring how well it rhymes,
As long as you understand my heart in the lines.
Never has my love been poured out like
Escaping my heart like a held back hiss.
Wondering how it could have been,
And if it could asking God" when"
Why did he put his hate on us,
Why he made us run and fuss.
Confusion triumphs as I cry myself to sleep,
Understanding hides with my pain so steep.
Crying yet still as my heart fills these pages,
Sinking in love as my life slowly ages.
Hurting inside bleeding it out,
trying to explain what its about.
Feeling my life sweep out of my control,
Loves yeilding hand has taken its toll.
Knowing not of what shall come to be,
Or even if again there will be a you and me.
I thought I was done wishing for pain,
But here it is blood flowing again.
I thought we were done with the helpless goodbyes.
I thought we gave up after all the lost tries.
