I wanna write a cheerful poem,
but the words won't come to mind.
I lost all my poetic thoughts,
but I will search til I can find..
all the soul I use to have,
the lines they used to flow.
Then my life spiraled out of control,
gone are those things I know.
haunted by the bottle,
that tore my life to shreds.
never thought you'd hurt me,
i became traumatized instead.
i let you break my heart,
about a hundred times.
i should have ran away,
to protect this mind of mine.
you made me build a wall,
that i'm afraid may not come down.
blocking me from love and trust,
cause i'm too scared to drown.
you sipped away and let me cry,
the abusive words lurk in my mind.
now i'm free, but i see grey skies
you never even tried.
