Secret I Hide

On the outside I share my beauty, laughter, and smilies.
While inside I deal with anger, sadness, and tears that I cry.
Cause deep down I have this mental torture I hide.
I feel as if I'm being wrecked and remodeled into something I'm not,
held down, and fixed into something he wants,
but I want to be wanted, loved,
and embraced for the person I was when we started this race.
My heart and body are trapped in this place,
while my mind and soul are trying to keep up with the pace.
I'm trapped in this prison, prison called love.
With no one to talk to , but the man from above.
Holding all this in is tearing me apart.
Somethings got to give or next it's going to be my heart !