Why I do it

Why I do it
is what you ask
you ask why I would ever cut
you ask why I want to kill myself
if you want to know why then I'll tell you
it's cause of my past
I guess being raped does that to you
but that is not why
that I was able to live with
but the real reason I do it
that answer is simple
it's cause of you
you
I cut cause of you
you are the ones putting the knife in my hand
putting the blade to my skin
all the times you said I am nothing
that I was a mistake
you telling me I should just kill myself
you are the reason I am who I am
the cutter I am
did you ever ask what was wrong
did you ever ask how I felt
how all those names made me feel
no
all you did was call me them
and more
you make me sick
you make me want to end it all
I'm just doing what you told me to do
so now you say it's bad
that I shouldn't end my life
when it was you
who told me to do it in the first part
wow how said
when I do what you tell me to
that it makes me an outcast
an monster
if so then I am a monster
but I am what you made me
so when you read my name in the papers
or hear my name on the news
saying a boy killed himself
just know
I only did what you asked
so am I the bad guy
or are you