Suicidal thoughts

Suicidal thoughts
oh those are the worst
I have them every day
I've had them since I was 6
is it wrong
that I want to take my own life
that I want to end it all
it's what I crave
I've tried many times
to end it
but nothing has worked
or nothing completly worked
cause I died a long long time ago
I am nothing to this world
I don't have a reason
I'm not good at anything
so is it wrong
that I want to end it all
to be my own savor
so I can finaly be trully happy
to die is to live
but to live is to die
what's the right choice
is there a right choice
cause they both are wrong
both have pain and misery
so what is right or wrong
to live or to die
I guess I will never know