Deep pain

Never do I want to mourn for , losses that I buttered off,the handful anguishes that I possess,the scar left in my heart,is something more.,the wounds have never been ,able to heal,it deepened and deepened unto heights,leaving me in a state of frenzy,the pain that was swallowed,like fire kindled off by water,it overflowed ,spreading on..the balm soothed on me ,was never much enough for me,i seek up solace,yearning for more.,am I like a shell thrown,in the deep sea?trapped in myself,battling .,all the odds by myself,hoping that rainbows of life .,will shade me forever..