This is beautiful then completely tragic. I love it.
I like how you express every aspect of her effect on you but you shouldn't blame yourself in the end.
It sets apart the poem. Makes it sorta choppy.

This poem is so AMAZING!! And truly beautiful in each word! It really wiggled inself into my heart and laid eggs, wonderful poem, I truly love it, oustanding job, inspiring, she must ahve really been something and don't blame yourself I don't believe you messed her up, don't blame yourself!!!!