A month passed, without you

A Whole month passed away
Since our “NO contact is in action
But seems like an year did pass
Since we talked for the last

I wonder, how you spent these days
I agree you are undaunted than most
Still I inquire whether you thought of me,
Whether my absence made any difference?

Did you feel this fidgety like me?
Didn’t you feel like breaking theses rules?
Didn’t you want to talk to me?
Did the shadows of loneliness follow you?

With every breath I missed you
Thoughts of you made me frown
I tried to be happy instead I am bleak
I didn’t want to fail you, but I lost.

I won’t atone, as what I feel is normal,
I wish, you call back this decree soon
I try to be optimistic, still not enough
Lots of obstacles are in our way

I can’t relinquish the hopes of my love
Even when it looks impossible to win
I know we stay away for betterment
Still I anticipate the day I will be yours

Twenty three months yet to pass
To know the answer of my fate
Please fill this vacuum of my life
Be it love, hate anything but not dubiety

This uncertainty suffocates to death
I don’t want to die, but live with you
Please call me back, accept me
Why you are hurting both of us?

I am sorry I know we are helpless.
I won’t make things difficult anymore
I will keep up this sucking rule
And wait for you with all my heart.

Please don’t leave me in the end.