Force fed memory

by Chelsey   Mar 6, 2013


My heart told me tonight, "stop writing about the same things",
that "repetition only makes you revisit emotions that will
double pain." So I decided to forgo another journal entry
on the effect of your leaving, but write of your stay-
in my memory that's too full to want you, but is force fed.

My membrane is a field of soft grass and you walk
like June, confidently strolling through thoughts that
are afraid to enjoy this season. Transparent eyes
should have warned me of your plan-
to tantalize clouded tear ducts that wish to pour.

However, I enjoyed your visit and while you decided
to pamper me with a bouquet of delightful words, I
allowed your intrusion. I was blinded by your rank,
which to me was always much higher than others-
like royalty, granting me with undeserving attention.

How can I rid you when your entrance is so vivid?
I'd rather live a thousand times over in its appearance,
than to go a day without your memory.
So tonight, I'll scribe of when you wanted me-
because it decreases the agony, and encourages desire.

    report violation
1


Did You Like This Poem?

Latest Comments

  • 11 years ago

    by The Poet Behind The Poems

    These poems always hit so deep so mix that with your gut - wrenching talent and here we are I thought it was
    A bit over worded at points but nothing to really harm the piece as the power and emotion just blew it out there

    Awesome

  • 11 years ago

    by Britt

    The first stanza felt a little.. stiff for me. Like you had a lot to say and a lot of sadness/attitude to go with it but you didn't quite know how to get it out. It shows the frustration really well.

    I really, absolutely don't like the use of membrane here. It threw off the entire stanza for me, but the second stanza is my favorite. It felt.. gross? Gooey. Icky lol. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE the bit about June, and know that month holds something obviously special to you. LOVE it.

  • 11 years ago

    by Tara Kay

    Chelsey, I felt the pain in your lines, and it was really powerful, touching a part of me and bringing forth such emotion...which was transcribed within the lines.
    The wording was subtly clever, the metaphors and ways in which everything was penned, just mind blowing, amazing.

    Loved this :)
    hugs xx

  • 11 years ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    Chelsey, I too was moved by this and the way you crafted some of these phrases, making it more meaningful than just saying this loved one is gone and you miss them. I so agree that memory is such a powerful tool and if I could not or was not allowed to think of that person who impacted my life....it would be a lasting hurt. That last line was amazing and hit home -- especially how you mentioned how vividly they come into your life, you must keep remembering because it's a different kind of pain not to be able to. Beautifully written with such real emotion....I loved reading this one!!!

  • 11 years ago

    by TheDarkCloudBehindthePoet

    I agree with andrea. The memory of a lost one can tear you apart. You see them when you sleep, when your awake, and when you just close your eyes. Strong are the words you use. Very strong.

Read All Comments (6)

More Poems By Chelsey