I'm tired
I'm so tired
I need to sleep but it never comes
I stay awake haunting myself
y thoughts buzzing through nerves of steal
night terrors cut away at my heart
they eat at my brain with words of solitude and gore
killing my soul and all that was once good
instead of rainbows and ice cream
I dream of wars and torture beyond comprehension
familiar faces receive the punishment
I wish I never knew them
I wish I could fill in their place
and when I do
I am blinded by pain and tears of lava
my minds explodes along with my dignity as I wake up
sweating with a scream still fresh in my ears
I see the world through eye's of hatred
they reek disgust for those who made me give in
those people who should have left me alone
left me with my dreams and my pain
they think I'm bubbly
they think I'm funny
they think I'm nice
wait until they get a load
of what I see at night
