Followed

Thoughts of you stalk me
and follow me all day,
but I always keep my calm
and push them all away.

I cannot let them catch me,
for fear they'll cut me down;
it is in your memory
that I one day fear I'll drown.

No matter what I've ever tried
they will not let me be,
and I fear that one day soon
I will lose my sanity.

Its usually easy during the day
to occupy my mind,
but it's certainly a different story
in the middle of the night.

When I lay down at night
and try to welcome dreams,
thoughts of you take over
and try to swallow me.

I don't put up much fight,
I usually let them in,
because in the dark of night
you can belong to me again.

I can imagine your arms around me
and your warmth against my skin;
lying there with you on my mind
makes me feel happy again.

I replay all the memories
of the times that we have shared,
and every single day
of separation that we bared.

Sooner instead of later
I come to the end of them,
and I once again bring myself
to the night it came to an end.

My mind can still recall
every word that you said;
they haunt me day and night,
they are burned into my head.

Please know that I forgive you
for those words that set you free,
because I hope that someday soon
your heart returns to me.