This is raw, and to read this well, it just pains me
It's honest and open and shows that you long for something that shouldn't matter, but it does.

You portrayed how something that was such a huge part of your life seems to have faded, seems to be forgotten, yet you cannot forget it, you cannot erase it, and you know that you shouldn't hurt, shouldn't feel the way you do.

This is a deep write...and I hope that you still enjoyed your day without this consuming you.

x

This is absolutely heartbreaking and I really don't know what else to say Jenni....I guessed those words would be "I'm sorry". The emotions flowing here are so raw and unobstructed, like you need to get this off your chest because it's been all you're thinking about. I think if another person caused us pain for whatever reason, we crave that apology, even though it's just spoken words, it still says something that they aren't moving on yet till they tell you.....so sorry for your pain, no one should have to hurt like this, especially at a time when there should be celebration and happiness. I know I can't possibly understand this but I have had on a much smaller scale those times when I felt still stuck in the past, because this person, friend, moved on and turned over a new leaf but didn't see the turmoil she put me in...how worried I was.....the intensity of these memories you share with this person is really seen by the reader. This write really grabs my heart. Here for you always <3