Once Upon a Tragedy

Once upon a time I wanted to die
I would hide in my room and cry and cry

No one ever noticed and no one would ask
And if they ever did I would put on a mask

It started a few years back when they got a divorce
My parents did split with both yelling and force

I was left alone and told to go play
But how could I lie and tell them okay

I was only a child, but not anymore
The year I was four is no more

Now I am considered a beautiful young lady
But looking in the mirror I no longer see Katie

What I see is the scars left behind
From a girl once little, perfect, and kind

I fight with myself every single day
I cannot win, and my body's gone astray

When did I start cutting? I said I never will
When did I start cursing? Or start popping pills?

I must have stopped eating or something else is wrong
Dear God please can you help me, where do I belong?

My ribs jut from my waist
And is that blood I taste?

How do they not notice? Why do they look away?
Why do I always smile and tell them I'm okay

'Cause the truth is that I lie; I do it every day
I can't keep going on, is the prayer that I pray

My friends say I am pretty, but that's not what I see
Instead I see a dying girl in broken tragedy

Who knows when I'll die, damn I do not care
I will keep pretending and walking in despair

'Cause when you lose yourself, that is when you die
So never let go of yourself, never say goodbye