I refuse to feel the emptiness I felt
When you turned away from me.
I refuse to be broken, to melt
When you hug me so closely.
I mustn't run back to you
Begging on my knees for you to love me
I mustn't remember when you were true
As you twined your heart with mine, not reality.
I can't pretend you never happened
That would be lying to my soul
I can't wish you were a dream, crying,
That would be worthless, leaving me cold.
But why, pray tell, do I miss your warmth
As I lay in my bed, heartbroken and alone?
But why, pray tell, do I wish you were laying beside me, keeping me from harm
While my eyes, bloodshot, fill with tears and down my cheeks they roam?
I know I shouldn't love you, shouldn't cry over you
Doubled over in agony all too familiar
Honestly, I try so hard not to,
But I know I just can't outrun you...
