Letter Of Denial (With Hidden Threats)

Four years after I ended the silence of your secrets,
you decide to reply to my accusations.
You wrote the exact same excuses that you warned me about
if I was to ever speak your truth.

"How disturbed I was from my mother's illness
and in my head I must be confused."

You deny any knowledge of the pain and torture
you know you put me through.
Your words are twisted with hidden messages
which only my eyes can see.
I understand your threats in disguise
just like I always have.

The painful truth is I know you will win
because you know I will not fight.

Your letter is filled with lies and denial
as you paint yourself to be a saint.
And now your letter I will always keep
as I read your words every night,
just to remind myself of the stupidity I had...

...for ever thinking I was brave enough to fight you
and strong enough to win.

Saffie
22

14/3/13