You've Got Mail

As i started to read the email
a tear ran down my cheek,
before i even finished
my body started feeling weak.

the first thing i thought to do was call 911
but it'd probably be to late,
so then i looked at my computer
to check the emails date.

more tears flowed from my eyes
it'd been sent a day ago,
so what i was supposed to do
i really didn't know.

this is it i thought
i can't take it anymore,
there's nothing left for me to do
nothing to live for.

suicide? homicide? accidental death?
who is there left to care if i breathe my last breath.

he was the only one that cared
the one that thought i mattered,
and now that he is gone
all my hopes and dreams are shattered.

so i should end it now
and be with him once more,
and again I'll get to see
the smile he once wore.

but why would he do this?
i wonder as i reach for the gun on the shelf,
i guess I'll just pull the trigger
and go find out for myself...