Reckless Voice

A reckless voice is heard within
It slowly makes my brain churn and spin
Surely it doesn't help me through thick and thin
I hope this voice will not willingly win
If I do what it tells me to do with this sin
There will be nothing but a memory of what I could have been

The pain I feel I cannot explain
And it makes my heart slowly detain
Thankfully my conscious tells me to remain
If I leave now, all of my dreams will have been flushed down the drain
Thoughts will lead back to what I became
My family and friends will cry with shame
This feeling drives me beyond insane
To think I'd be the reason I'd meet my maker with my own vain
And I'll look up from where I'll be rotting with disdain
There I'd lie with lifeless veins

The thoughts about this I cannot suppress
This causes me to feel even more depressed
No matter how hard I try, I must confess
It never decreases: the desire grows more; not less

So there I'll delicately be falling down
Like a beautiful feather, a woman in a gown
Like my detest for swimming, I might as well drown,
There I'd lie without a sound.