Some Days

Some days I hurt so bad...
I just want to cry...
Though I try not to let it show...
I don't know where to turn...
Nor do I know what to do with it all...

There are days when I try to make it right...
By making all the "right" choices...
But sometimes I know that I make mistakes...
That I make things worse for myself...

Sometimes I find myself thinking that I might actually make it...
But then the pain hits again...
And I feel like my world is turned upside down...
How are you supposed to deal with so much pain and hurt and confusion?

In all the knowledge that I've gained...
There are still so many days when I want to cut..., or worse...
I try to let it all go, but I still carry it all inside...
Why can't I just have a normal life?

By Jessie 11/4/12