Hard days I'll never like...
They make me feel things I'd rather not...
Sometimes they make me wish for things...
That I know aren't good for me...
How do you go on...
When all you want to do is cut...
or worse, die...
At least, there is a small part of me...
That wants to do this....
It's hard to fight it off sometimes...
But somewhere deep down...
I know that I want to live...
So I keep fighting my way out...
It's not easy...
Not when you don't know where you're going in life...
Which path to follow, etc...
You hurt, you bleed inside...
But no one seems to notice it...
You're screaming inside...
Wanting someone to acknowledge the pain I'm in...
but no one knows it, sees it...
What do I have to do to get someone to listen to me?
I wish that I knew how to listen to myself sometimes...
Today was a bad day...
Felt the need to cut again (but I didn't)...
If it hadn't been for the fact that the staff is 'observing' me...
I probably would have cut...
