A Heart Of Ice

A heart of ice, a heart of hate is the kind
bear.

The elements of anger and sorrow taint
my heart. you ask why? its cause
throughout my time in this cold world I,ve
so many things in these cold dark brown
eyes of mine. growing up without a father
wondering is it something i did to make
my father leave his first son. steady crying
at night only to have my tears gradually
turn to ice and my heart turn to hollow
void of every emotion but everlasting
hate and rage.

Seeing my first loved one take her last
breath due to the deadly disease cancer
another tragic event causing my heart to
turn even more colder. being considered
an outcast by my peers, having no friends,
just wanting someone to talk to and
understand me. A desire that slowly
drifted away.

Moved in with my grandmother at age six
due to my mothers drug addictions. Hate
lingering in my heart for her. thirteen now
just entering manhood experienced my first
heartbreak did she love me? or was it all
a lie? who knows.

2010-2011 lost my aunt and another cousin
one cause bone cancer and the other
cause of drug overdose. More devastating
pain
added to my heart feeling like am i next to
lay in the casket of death? will it be heaven
or hell?

Then 2012 came I,ll never forget that
gloomy day its the day I lost the only
person who ever truly loved me not
going into detail but since that day death
has been the only thing to kiss me.

So you ask why I possess the kind of heart
I do well here it is.