Life Of A BDD

My face,oh how revolting
It makes me sick just thinking of it
Full of zits and scars,I hate
Though I just can't help but look at it

Morning,night I pick my face
Hoping it helps, but I know it didn't
How worst it gets,but I just can't stop
I hate it when I feel bad about it

I try and try, it's killing me inside
I know it's wrong but it's just so fun
And then I try to hide myself
But nobody understands

They keep telling me I look fine
I laughed at them,I am no fool
What did you think, I don't know myself?
I'm ugly and you know it too

Ugh, I threw out all the mirrors today
It kept whispering names to me
I even locked myself in my room
I mean,what's the use of going out?

I've decided to drop out of school
I am too tired of being judge by my looks
Too insecure to care anymore
I just want to go home and lie down

I'm so ugly, I slit my thighs and wrists
Pain makes me feel a bit relieved
I am fat and I don't deserved to be loved
What's the point of living anymore?

I just want to sit down and die
Let me rot, don't look at me,I make you sick
What if I die and look ugly?
It doesn't matter I've always been