A SHY HEART

I cant help but wonder what your doing at this moment
are you really with me, as i defeat this great opponent

I've had this feeling in my heart, a warmth when i was cold
you'd coup in your hands, protect me i was told

i cursed your hallow name, when guns were to my head
but when i reminisce, its a blessing im not dead

its a blessing im alive, but my heads to loud to hear
the voice they say you whisper, so far but yet so near

2:30 in the morning, i know you heard my please
clutching my stomach crying, falling to my knees

i can still remember the stars, i saw through my teary eyes
if only i could disappear, into those starry skies

and now i stand corrected, a thank you on my tongue
id like to give myself the cred, but your the only one

you saturate my life, with deeds unseen sometimes
but i can feel you in my pen, when writing these rhymes

so now i face reality, to the truth inside my heart
although i try to hide, from me you never part

so as i lay inside, the ocean of your love
all these times i searched, the answer was above

but still i find it hard, to trust you with it all
my hearts been slightly hardened, these walls need to fall

so keep dispensing truth, even when it hurts
the truth is want i want, its the only thing that works