Visceral Slaughter

Encompassed feelings bubble away, vicously attacking my very core.
Finally, I'm faced with the reflection that has truly haunted me for years,..
No longer will my emotions allow me to suppress, this over due issue.
Longing to bow my head in shame, as I'm taken back through time, by the blink of falling tears...

{ When memories crush the soul }

Blazed summer nights, scorched a cushioned velvet heart, as you enticed me to see the wonders of fire. Falling slowly from the sky, into a pool of glittering darkness, only to be replaced by the light of a silver sun...

{ Spotlight }

Echoing silences pierced the ear drums of family and friends, as your power of invisibility cloaked them. Blinded by dreams of freedom, love, acceptance, equality, holy eternal promises, children... 'twas all in my view, as I explored the dramatic acoustics of your eyes.
Paralysed by your enchanting a capella, i was pronounced your reverie... in which you dedicated a poetic love letter...

{ Dangerous waters }

I'd given myself to you completely, unconditionally, irrevocably... my heart beat harmonised with the melody of yours, a spectacular collaboration for years... until your heart stole notes from another page, whilst still playing our song...

{ Between choices and regrets }

With the injection of lies, no antibiotics for deception... cold blood vessels begin to clot. A crystalized frozen home formed, as trust plummeted like an avalanche... suffocating a warm hearted princess, soon to be crowned a cold hearted ice queen, to get over you...

{ Breathing under water }

A tsunami of tears, has moisturised the cracks in my frozen completion, as I've played the scenes over and over... like an oscar winner motion picture on repeat.

"Take : 333 -
Shards of a vacant heart, no place that far"

to

" Take : 666 -
Trolling the fires of defeat, to weld me whole once more"

Yet,
no matter the twist to the violent thoughts that plague my feelings,
one thing is always vivid...
I'd take a knife to my own throat,
before letting my heart think for me again.

////////////////

Club challenge,
Saffies " title toss tuesday"