This is pretty deep Jenni, and I really felt the anger and the pain throughout the whole piece.
I also felt strength though, because when you talk about someone saving you, truthfully only you can do that, they might give words and comfort but its you that makes the end decision...its you that is strong.

You're far from stupid, our heart takes the full brunt of pain and sometimes it confuses us with still caring...its natural for while you may have been hurt by this person, you know there were times when they made you happy...and you loved them and things about them that still haven't changed.

I love how the whole poem flowed, it felt choppy in places but that worked extremely well with the anger you had and worked into the poem.

I really enjoyed reading this but it tore through me because I hate seeing poems that are so deep and so personal to people I care about especially when they are so sad and full of pain,

Hugs and love...you're awesome
x

I wish I could make this all better for you, I can only imagine how much of a pain he is being, and why now of all times, when all you want is your space. It's unfortunate too because he'll always be a part of your life since he is the father of your child right? You're being the bigger and better person in this situation, it's important the two of you get along for the sake of Connor. I just wonder why he has to be so coniving and rude. You aren't stupid though, you have the biggest heart and you just want to be happy so you're trying to be nice and cordiral. It'd certainly be nice if it went both ways, and hopefully here soon it will.

Just keep reminding yourself everyday that you're a beautiful person inside and out and you don't need these ugly people in your life and that you've found someone better and more loving than he ever used to be. It's hard to admit since it was quite a long period of time and even a few times you got engaged, & tried to work it out. He seemed to have all your love at one point, I can't even imagine the pain he has caused. I just know you are such a strong person and can make it through this. It's hard to shake it off, but you don't need to be causing yourself more pain by letting it soak up all your emotions. I really can't speak much for you though because I am not in the situation you are in, I understand why it's so hard to go to sleep, there has to be a million things on your mind. You deserve the peace and quiet though, if he's apparently moved on I don't see why he can't let you.

Ha, anyways...the poem. You just perfectly describe what you're feeling. Raw and so deep. It's very easy to connect with what you're saying this way, clearly I just wrote a huge comment, I get it completely. Also there's that bit of poetic touch to it that is lovely. Much loveee!