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This absolutely brought tears to my eyes .. I loved how it flowed beautifully written with so much emotion behind every word .. I feel like this was hard for you to write and I sense the pain behind it .. All I have to say is amazing

I was surprised by your structure of this poem because it's so different but also kind of a new trend, so immediately I want to read it. As I got into it I realize what an emotional outburst and release this must have been for you.. and just because thats the case I won't nit pick grammar one bit :P bwahaha.

I love the long sentences here.. some may be turned off by it because it's almost read as rushed.. but I read this like I would at a poetry reading almost.. especially this part: "We can never be together again, there's too much history, too many cruel actions, too many spiteful words between us. We could never be together...I guess we'll either love each other or hate each other..."

I LOVED that. I read it SO rushed until "I guess we'll either..." and the pace made me automatically slow down and intensify.. rushing out emotions. Amazing.

As for the content itself I'm going back and forth if I want to actually comment on it in depth or not because it is SO personal and it hurts so much. I will say one thing I was told before and it helped a little bit. You don't stop loving someone the second they hurt you. If you did, you'd never stay in love with someone. You did the right thing and you put yourself in the right position.. but drinking another glass isn't going to cure yourself of the pain. It only makes it worse.. so put down the bottle and work on yourself. Build yourself up, start loving you for who you are again, because right now I know it's really easy to beat yourself up with all these questions. It's fair to do, but unfair after time. You will move on.. I promise. You may never stop fully loving him, you have history no one can take away.. but it DOES get better. I PROMISE :)

Okay so I guess I went into it more than I anticipated. You know me, I don't have boundaries lol.

First thing that really caught my eye was the metaphor of feeling like glass; being breakable. I know how you feel, the hurt has literally consumed ever fiber of your being, you just feel exhausted. All I can tell you as I have is just forget about him, he's totally not worth it but I definitely understand how long it takes to move on from a breakup. I went through something similar, never thought I'd move on from the feelings I once had for someone who didn't feel the same but then I found a new interest (which you have! :P) and someone who has become someone I never thought I'd have a chance to love, but he's my best friend and the most amazing man I know. Totally not easy at all especially after a long time. It takes healing and time to yourself to think, but you can do it! Easy for me to say, I know.. but truly I know you have the strength to get through this! You have such a lovely son who makes you happy and just think he makes your life worth living..right?

I know you have soo many questions you wish you had answered, you'll get the answers soon enough but for now, try to relax, because if you keep worrying you'll create more problems & you wouldn't want that. I love how you mentioned the one quote however 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger' honestly it is a very thought provoking quote. I can totally understand that being through all of this you lose all faith in the world, but life can be so much better if you just believe. You are strong, you made it through most if already, you're just in what seems like the hardest part of it all but I know you'll be better soon! You'll make your way out of this little funk :)

Wonderfully expressed write like usual as of late. I hope with enough of these emotional rreleases you'll be back to your normal self in no time.. I hope you have faith in yourself because I do!