Thoughts of Randomness

For such a long time
I've been in deep thought
Remembering, the time that's past
And
All of what could have been
Only if I had succeeded at some thing

But I've become lost
To the randomness of time,
And the darkness it hides
For time is not bound by desires, yet it holds you to whims
And it keeps you bound to the endless thoughts
Which are,....
Those of want

Why do we suffer, when our aim is good
Why do we find closed doors when the search is for truth
Yet I find that I'm
Held captive by the evils of this world
All I wanted
Was to be an asset.......
Yet
I find it hard to see
At the end of the day's toil

But I feel like I'm awakening in failure
Tired of falling down, bound to my knees
Will there ever be someone
Who will help me up

I remember a time
Not so long ago
When things of this world were good
Wholesome and morally sound
We worked together
For the same end
And we closed the day
Over a cup of coffee watching the sunset

But now we're bound to hate
One that consumes the very soul of man
Our veins run with poison
And
The memories that run through my veins
Remind me of the corruption that we try to hide
The random thought of decay
Passes this way each day
As we lay dying

And at the close of this day
I feel like I'm awakening in failure once more
Tired of falling down, bound to my knees
Will there ever be someone
Who will help me up
Who will help me escape

The randomness of thought

Robert Long
5/5/2013