You could never figure out,
How much I hurt each and every day,
I wish I could find out how,
For you to see life in my way.
I know you try your best,
To help me with every struggle,
I just can't get any rest,
Knowing my thoughts are a never ending battle.
It kills you to see me do this to myself,
I heard the tears you cried,
Don't worry I will get help,
For inside I have already died.
I never meant for the monster inside me,
To take away the girl you once knew,
I'm so sorry I don't know how to be happy,
It's something I've forgotten how to do.
I'm not the same girl you once loved,
I don't smile all the time,
My mind is so broken and corrupt,
My happiness falling out of line.
One day I hope,
I can be the girl you knew a year ago,
Not the one who can't cope,
The one that's highs were high and lows not so low.
