I Can't Be Fixed

by Maria   May 10, 2013


Even though you always reassure me

it won't happen,

I'm scared.

No, I'm terrified that one day,

you'll finally have enough of all this:

the sadness, the insecurities, the flaws,

the depression, the fights,

the suicidal thoughts that persist,

and you'll understand how much more

you deserve.

And when you do, you'll leave

to find someone better,

someone who's less depressed

and I'll be alone again.

But what hurts me the most is,

that I will not even be able

to blame you for giving up on me

because I gave up on myself

a long time ago.

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  • 11 years ago

    by Lemon

    The extent to which I can relate to this is pretty surprising. It's an excellent poem but very sad

  • 11 years ago

    by CathyButterflyJC

    I nominated this for the weekly poetry contest because of the emotion and intense feelings you expressed in this poem, I related to it a lot, my heart broken beyond repair and terrified of losing the one I love like I so often do, you really touched me with this poem and you are so talented excellent poem!!!! 100/100

  • 11 years ago

    by dalllllal

    Don't give up on yourself I don't know you and i dont know what youve been through but you're stronger than that writing these words shows you have courage so be strong and don't give up

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