Behind This Fake Smile

by WintersAngel   May 12, 2013


It's really a shame
That I have to let you go
But there are a few things
That you should know

Behind this fake smile of mine
Is a world of depression and suicidal thoughts
You'd never know it was real
Unless you could see how hard I've fought

There's a form of agony in me
That's been built so strong
No one has noticed
That I've been dying all along

You'd never know I cut myself at night
Or that I cry myself to sleep
Who could love a girl with a broken heart
Much less watch her weep

It's been a secret from my family
I can't stand to disappoint them again
They watched me suffer
Because I hadn't taught myself how to hide it then

My friends, they knew nothing
They left as soon as they knew
To them, I was already gone
And there was nothing they could do

A frozen heart lies still in my body
It stopped beating long ago
My attempts to fix it were useless
It was filled with too much sorrow

An emptiness fills my being
A numbing sensation spreads
Life had passed too quickly
I had no time to feel any sort of dread

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  • 11 years ago

    by ThebutterfliesMuse

    It really is hard when you have to let someone go but depression makes us push people away. I like the startthough simple really does lead into the poem well as it states why. The second stanza is eye opening bbecause it leads into the story with a bomb shell. We never truly know what a person is going through in the depths of our soul. We fight everyday to survive and fighy the demons within ourselves. I love your wording here as it truly does show the battle.

    We truly do feel like we die inside ftom the pain we feel. Angony is a great word to portray this. No one truly cares when we fight inside it feels like we are invisible all the time. We always feel like no one can love us with scars inside and out. It truly is a struggle everyday.

    We always want to hide from everyone. Its hard to feel or hide from our familywhen they truly don't care. Its impossible to feel loved. Again its hard when friends leave and don't care. We scream out in pain and no one hears us. They leave and live happy lives and we struggle.

    Depression does feel us with sorrow and a heart that is so cold cannot be fixed. No matter how hard we try its hard. I love your metaphors though. A heart filled with sorrow cant be fixed easily. In the third line of the last stanza had should be has.

    Overall this poem is good hon. Keep the fight going. You are loved 5

  • 11 years ago

    by Bonaventure Onuabuchi

    Awesome flow of emotiom

  • 11 years ago

    by Alessandra

    Beautiful.

  • 11 years ago

    by depressedemoxp

    Wow this poem is amazing! it really speaks to me! great poem love :)

  • 11 years ago

    by BlueJay

    Wow. This piece is really good. I definitely relate. I love the smooth flow and the voice. Great write and strong emotions.

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