I Don't Belong

What if I never born?
Would anyone be torn?

What if I never breathed air?
That could possibly be fair.

What impact have I made?
Have I ever been someone's aid?

What if I was gone tomorrow?
Would anyone feel an ounce of sorrow?

Do I really matter?
Or should I just shatter.

Would anyone miss me?
Or would the world agree.

If I left this world today,
Would anyone break away.

What If I finished it all right now,
Not a soul would give me a bow.

Thinking back on my life,
It's easier to grab a knife.

Wonder what would be the cause?
Would people applause?

What if the world was better off with me gone?
Would tomorrow have a brighter dawn?

Would my friends even care?
Or would they think it's fair.

Do people think of me as a painful blister?
How about my little sister?

What about my dad?
Would he think about the times we had?

How about sweet caring mom?
I wonder if she could stay calm.

Should I go or stay,
Or continue to pray.

I'm searching but can't find the truth,
Maybe I should just end my youth.

I've given up on everything to be,
But most of all I've given up on me.