Penny For My Thoughts

by LostForWords   May 15, 2013


You don't know. You weren't there.
You walked out, not just on
him but on me. I understand
you were hurting. We all were hurting,
maybe me most of all.

I lost a brother, you lost a son, as did he.
You missed out on the fun part when
I had to cradle a grown man and
listen to the tears fall down his
cheek and drip to the floor.

You think it was easy for me
having to mend a broken heart
while I was still grieving. Even now
I still find it difficult.

Sometimes I wish I could start
a new life like you did, but even
that isn't easy. It's the hardest part of all.
All I felt was hatred, from head to toe.
Hatred for you.

It wasn't supposed to be this way.
It should of played out differently
but you had to make your own rules,
just to suit yourself. Did you ever stop
to think how you actions would
affect everyone else.

How they would affect me, how they
would affect him. I never knew
you could be so selfish but
I guess it came easy for you.
I want you gone, gone from here,
gone from my life, gone from his.
I've said all I can say and now I'm lost for words.

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  • 10 years ago

    by Burning Angel

    I love this poem. My mom walked out on me at a young age so i understand the pain. she has been in and out of my life for the last 18 years. it is tough and this poem really hit a sore spot for me! i love how much emotion that seemed to radiate off each of your stanzas.

    It reminds me of how much anger i feel when i write about her. I love it.

    sorry for your pain

  • 11 years ago

    by Hannah Lizette

    The title reminded me of the song "If I Die Young" by The Band Perry lol... every time I hear that saying - I automatically start singing that song.. lol. Random thought, sorry lol.

    So, my interpretation of this song is that the mother left her family... maybe due to the loss of her son? But yet ultimately it made the family...the sibling and father, they lost another family member on top of the son/brother.

    I've seen that happen in families, which is weird to me. I know the pain is rough, but if by losing one piece of your family, how can that help by leaving the other pieces? To me, it would only make it more painful... I'll never understand. I know it can put a strain on a family, but to me I'd think it would only make me strive to pull closer to mine. To cherish every single moment with them because you never know when they will be gone.

    You can feel the resent and anger towards the parent that left... which I totally understand. I'm unsure if this is a true emotional piece for you or just a fictional piece. If real, I'm sorry... I know somewhat of what you are going through, at least with the pain of losing a loved one part. </3

    Wonderful piece full of raw emotion.