Loneliness

"Sweetie, brace yourself"
I tell the mirror
As I stare at myself
And see the tears
Rolling down my cheek
Making my piercings glisten
In the dull light's gleam
As I beg for someone to listen.

They never hear my pleas
Though silent they are,
They never hear my screams,
As I make new scars
I bleed it out,
All the pain and betrayal,
I know even though I can shout,
I am so frail.

I want someone to love me
Not just because they think they need to
I don't want to pretend to see
The light at the end of the tunnel, too,
No one knows I shake and cry
Every night and day
Wishing someone would try
To save me from disgrace.

I want a star
To brighten my night
But that dream fell far
Into depression's abyss not fit for light,
I rock back and forth
Feeling so incredibly alone
Breathing raggedly and unsure
If I'll ever find true love's road.