Temporary Relief

I tell myself I don't need it
And that what I'm feeling will pass.
I try to remember it's all temporary
And that none of it will last.

It doesn't matter what's wrong
My escape is always the same
I try to stop myself
But I always lose this game.

I try to convince myself
But it never works
Cause I remember how it feels
The pain that stops the hurt.

I'm calmed immediately
When the blade slices my skin
This lasts about a minute
Until I freak out again.