Will These Obstacles Ever Shut Down

If I told you
You'd never understand
You'd walk away
Without a second thought
Or a back glance

To find out the one you love
You can never be with
He'll never except you
My age is in the way
My heart is thought of second
He will be leaving soon
To fight wars far away

I know my heart's in the clouds
If I don't agree with you
I'm letting you down

If I told you of my fears
Why my world has crumbled
And the reasons I am crying
Your disagreement at my rage
Would pull me apart without hesitating
I release it here
In my words
As my hope unravels
And my world falls apart

I don't wanna have to wait to seventeen
To call you mine
I don't care what my parents say
I love you anyways
I wanna be yours
The law can't break us apart
If we keep ourselves clean
Because until marriage I keep my virginity
So what say can the law book have
Against two lovers
If we add the label
Boyfriend and girlfriend
They can't destroy us
I don't care that I'm fifteen
It doesn't matter you just turned nineteen
I know how I feel
My heart pleads I love you
How do you feel
What is yours saying

And this is what shatters me
I don't wanna be the girlfriend
Whose waving goodbye to her army man
More then a few tears in her eyes
I don't wanna have to kiss you goodbye
Spend long nights with your photograph
Trying not to cry
After the day you left
To join the military
To be waiting for your letters
Not knowing if waiting inside the envelope
Will be your writing
Or a news of death
I can't live that life
Not knowing if you're dead or alive

To believe in life
Not murder to solve issues
I would miss your face
And the sweetness of your hugs' embrace
You so far away
Me begging you to stay
I don't want to be that bride
Who keeps her constant agony
Bottled up inside
As at the alter
Pronounced husband and wife
I became the wife of the man I love
Beside me in uniform
I can't be that lady
Waiting for you to come home
But oh how I love you so
So I beg you please don't go

A tear falls down my face
This is the two things that bother me
That pierced my heart today
The wound will still be fresh tomorrow
This isn't going away
No one understands
If you get one
The other will be a wonder
As my heart stands a mystery
So many parts I don't want you to see
If I have to hide away
I'll hide it wisely
So don't worry about me
But you decide if we should try
Is it wrong to hope we're meant to be
And that nothing should stand in the way of you and me!

Saturday, May 18, 2013
1:37 AM