Secret Sadness

It is quite sad,
I can't wear certain swim suits now,
My scars show too much,
People will ask, "How?"

All those times,
Was I really taking a shower?
I kept the door locked,
Cutting into my skin deeper.

When I was alone,
They didn't know what I was doing,
How numb I was inside,
The fact that my soul was crumbling.

I've been lost for awhile,
No one really noticed,
I am so lifeless,
My body is alive but my mind is dead.

Once there was a girl,
She died inside long ago,
No one ever saw the sadness in her eyes,
They only saw what she was willing to show.