Fighting Back

by Jenni Marie   May 30, 2013


Whilst you're not curled within my embrace as you should be, I can't help but to smile. I've been going about my days completely numb and in total silence yet today I not only play music but I also sing along to it.

The windows are open, and I can feel the breeze along my skin. Skin that I kept covered for so long, ashamed of the patterns that I created myself upon it. But the loops have almost faded now and my mind is clear and free from the devestating influence of alcohol.

{I can breathe again.}

And no, you are not in my arms right now...but you're within my reach. I can see the long term more clearly now than ever before, and I can see that eventually you will be back where you belong.

With me.

I made you a silent unspoken promise that I would become better and that you would be back with me once more, and I can not only see but also feel the fruits of my labour now, when only a short while ago I thought I was yearning for the impossible. Because how can you overcome your demons when your biggest demon...is yourself?

But if there is one thing that I know without a doubt, it's that you are worth fighting for, and that I will succeed. And before too long, that promise will become reality and you will be back in my arms once again, beautiful boy.

Mummy loves you.

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  • 11 years ago

    by Hannah Lizette

    While reading this, I assumed it was about a lover, yearning for a time when you two can reunite... but then getting to the ending and realizing you are talking about your child, absolutely heartbreaking.

    This poem shows how much strength and fight you have in you... that you will battle your demons in every obstacle just to be able to have them back in your arms. This poem alone shows alone that you are a good mother, that even you will give them up for the time being just so you can fight your demons and can have a better future with them.

    This poem shows a lot of hope and promise...a promise not only to your child but to yourself. I hope things all work out for you. <3

  • 11 years ago

    by Tara Kay

    Jen, I know that you are strong, and that Connor means so much to you, it is because of him, that you fight, that you'll succeed, that you will be able to hold him, and he'll know, he knows, you love him.

    This poem, the hope here, the strength, shows exactly how strong you are, and how much you are willing to overcome to get back what you deserve, to be a mother.

    The emotion in this piece, was overwhelming, your fears, and those demons, the fight and the win, it's all there.

    Much love,
    xx

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