I Wish

Night after night,
Day after day,
I type out the question
That I yearn to say
These feelings you give me
Help none at all
But that's okay,
Because I hide it all.
Maybe you know,
Maybe you don't,
Either way I can only wish
My fingers will send it
But I know they won't
Despite the push
My friend is giving me
Because I took
Too many steps forward
And now I'm scared
I'm not enough,
Just a burden to bear.
I whisper to my phone
Hoping you'll hear
That my care has shown
And that's what I fear.
I wish it mattered
I wish I was brave
My thoughts have scattered
But there is no change.
I wish I could ask
I wish I could say
I'll pull aside my mask
And ask for you to be with me.