The Death Of The Demons

Twenty years I've had them

Sucking the life out of me

Destroying every positive thought

Every dream

Voices tainting every memory

Every tear

The past is supposed to shape the present

Shape who you are

Well it has alright

It's made me into a shell

Without a voice

Without a backbone

Left me with nothing

For twenty years

Still hear them as though they were still here

Names, names, names

Why do they hurt so much?

Why do they still stay with me?

Even after all this time

Twenty goddamn years

When will it end

When will I be free from all this

All this poison

Fear of failure

Fear of losing

Fear of doing anything

Never stepping out of my comfort zone

Never venturing out of my world

Fantasy, mystery and adventure

Doesn't exist to anyone else except me

They're my sanctuary

Away from the voices

Away from the poison

Enough

I'm losing it

Can't take it

Everything becomes black

Nothing makes sense

My heart is officially broken

And no one can help or change me

I'll be forever in this black abyss not even wanting to try

And nothing will change until all the demons eventually die.