A Hole That Can Never Be Filled

Morning's here

But everything is the same

He's gone again

My only comfort is his bed sheets

I bring them to my face so I can smell him

But its nothing compared to the real thing

My body is aching from all our lovemaking

But aches more for his touch

I'm surrounded by him

His room

His clothes

His scent

Everything

But I still don't feel better

Naked and cold

Lost and confused

Left and hurt

He always does this

Goes away without a word and I don't hear from him for ages

Leaves the keys so I can lock up when I go

He's not even mine

Not that he's anyone else's

It's time for me to go but can't summon the energy

Just one more minute

Let me lie here and pretend he's next to me

Please

Right time to go

As I look back over my shoulder and see a picture of him

I'm lost

My eyes start filling up

But I take a deep breath and gently close the door

A few days later I'll be exhausted with all the fake nonchalance that I have to build

Because the truth is he has left a giant hole in my heart that can never be filled.