You were just a lie

Friday, April 26.
How could I ever forget that
day I first set my eyes on
you. I stopped you on
the middle of the
road to talk
to you.
You turned around and smiled.
The attention and positive
attitude you showed
me, all that was
just a lie.
So natural, so sweet, so smart,
so innocent you seemed.
I even thanked God
for you.
I did all I could to show you that
I was for real.Exhausted
most of my time and
energy to make
you see.
I spent sleepless nights trying
to find ways to make you
smile, ways to show
you just how
much
I needed you in my life. Poor
me, I subjected myself to
that torture all for
nothing.
You were just a lie. At night,
the moon and the stars
shine so bright and
it seems so so
peaceful.
In the dark, there I lay on my
bed. My face downcast, my
heart so heavy, the
feeling of
loneliness, sadness, confusion
and helplessness mysteriously
whirled in my heart and
body. Emptiness
and the
feeling of uselessness, wishing
I could just fly away to a
place where I belong.
Tears drops
falling
from my eyes, I look up and
gasp for air, take a deep
breath and wipe the
tears from my
eyes.
I could hear the heartless night
whispering to me saying,
"You are all alone,
nobody cares
and
nobody will. Whether you cry
yourself to death or not,
she's not here and
she'll never be
yours."
Tears even flow faster as the
words echo in my head.
Then like a lost child,
I tuck myself
under
the sheets, fold myself with
both hands clamped in
between my thighs,
as tears continue
to flow.
So I cry myself to sleep. Wake
up in the morning, the
scarlet sun so
beautiful
just reminds me of how
beautiful you are.
Birds chirping
so sweetly
reminding me of the sweet
tone of your voice. I just
chuckle and say to
myself, "As
long
as you are happy the way you
are, it's alright, it's okay."
And here I am today,
thinking back
and
writing a poem about it. But,
wherever you are and
who ever you may
be in love with,
I will always
Love you
even
though you were just a lie.