God nizzy I wish I hated you but I don't
I look at you or your pictures and burst into tears
But I'm not talking about one or two tears
No its heart wrenching sobs
I see your smiling face and it floods my mind with memories of us.
Then in that same second I remember that night
Warren,Nadim,me,and then you
Me and warren gotten into a fight
About things only you knew.
I was angry
I texted you not caring if you didn't want to text me.
I was so angry at you.
You were so lost.
Then things were sorted out
I wasn't angry anymore
All of my anger was replaced with
...sadness
You said you could still get into trouble
That sentence could make me do anything to save you
...including saying goodbye to you
"Please adri let's just say goodbye on good terms"
"Fine goodbye nizzy I'm going to miss you"
"No dont do that to me or you. Its not fair to us. Look adri id's going to take time but know I NEVER blamed you. You need to know that
The next thing is to forgive yourself . And know everything happens for a reason I love you fishy goodbye"
My heart stopped beating for seconds I felt what it felt like to be dead .
That was our goodbye
This is us now.
...nothing
I miss you everyday nizzy every god forsaken day
And I don't know how to be better
