My Dance with Satan

I dance with shadows so proper,
Their kisses against my bare skin
Are painfully sweet and prosper
But the ice on which we waltz grows thin.
The skates I wear shred the ice
My dress twirling like a black hole
The shards give way to their dark price
My heart on a platter, a ravaged soul.
Breathing the flames from their lips
Sears my throat and lungs
Killing me with Satan's kiss
And to Hell's escape, I jump.
I've thought of all the ways I could die:
The knife, hanging, jumping, pills
I've tried three of the four, how I tried,
But some alarm in the back of my mind always trilled.
My eyes burn when I want to cry, no tears stream
I poured them all out with each attempt
At suicide, my dark little secret;
Hoping from life I'd be exempt.
Loving liars, cheaters, beaters,
Destroying all of the sweet girl I was
Drowning me in the hate while my sanity teeters.
My dance with Satan
Tore me apart
As I twirled with pain
And broke my own heart.