Some experts say be grateful living happy in the moments that make you feel. Make you whole.
Others say you should be happy and fulfilled more often than not. They criticise me and leave me wanting. They offer hope and change but never deliver it. They disappoint.
Doctors give me pills and people give me wisdom but nothing fills the hole in my stomach. Nothing ever did, will it ever for forever or will it only be patched for a movement long enough to feel normal. To feel apart of something wholesome.
So if it does not change, and this is me, my life and my version of happy then maybe I am crazy but I am still love. I feel it and know it. Always willing to reach out and share it.
If you are like me, somewhat empty I dedicate thee to you eternally.
