Inner pain

Here I lie in bed alone
As I stare up at the sky
Their words of hatred build in my head
And over take my mind

The things they whisper behind my back
As I try not to care
All eyes on me and I hear them speak
As though I'm not even there

My pain is their pleasure
My sadness their joy
But calmness is all I show
For if I let my anger seep
It would surely worsen the blow

My life a never ending battle
Of pain and scars so deep
And I know just how it feels
To cry myself to sleep